Comfort Zone?

What comfort zone?

I decided to join a new Bible Study and last night was the first meeting. At a church that had a lot of people...  none of which I knew.

A little something about me.  I don't do well when meeting new people and I am painfully shy when I don't have Chris next to me being my ice-breaker. You see, Chris is a natural talker. Life of the party. Outgoing and extroverted. Me? I'm the clam that stands next to him having mild panic attacks inside my head that are covered up with a small and usually a few dumb jokes to calm my nerves.

People. I do not willingly go to events on my own, without a friend, or without my extroverted husband.

So why does God seem to be pushing me into these situations?

I have a comfort zone... but God doesn't seem to see it lately.

So, last night I arrive at the church and there are a LOT of cars. I immediately get nervous. I walk into the church and see no one but then I hear noise coming from a room around the corner. I make my way around and come around the last bend and see a room FILLED with ladies. I think "I'm out of here" and want to turn around and walk right back out. But..  something (obviously we know who) pushed me forward. I filled out my name badge, looked at the tables and sat there like a deer in the headlights. Who would I sit with??  Finally, a lady looked my way and smiled (her mistake). I sat next to her. :)

I was my normal, quiet, shy self who didn't take my jacket off, did not make eye contact for a while and did not say much.

As it turns out, my table of ladies was pretty awesome and wouldn't you know that God put me with a group of ladies that were very welcoming and made me feel like I fit right in.

I can't say I'm looking forward to going back and doing this all over again next week, but I know that somehow I will get through it again.

This year seems to be the year that God pushes me outside of whatever I considered to be my comfort zone.   It makes me nervous for what is to come but hopeful for good changes.

What is God working on you for this year?