Pretty sure...

That the concoction I just stuck in the oven is going to cost me a LOT of running on the treadmill next week and that one bite will be equal to an entire days worth of meals.... but man does it look and smell good and I cannot wait to try it!

Which brings me to today's post. I.Am.Addicted.To.Chocolate.

There, I said it. The truth is, I have very little self-control with food. Even though I have made a lot of positive changes towards eating healthier in the last month or so, I cannot kick my love for chocolate and all things sweet. I am learning that the more I try to stay away from it, the more I desire it. So, I have changed my thinking and have decided that I need to try to limit it... but even that is more of a challenge than most anything else in my life. I am doomed and most likely forever relegated to a size 12 and up pair of jeans for the rest of my life because of this bad habit. Which led me to start thinking... is a size 12 so bad? How about a size 14? How big is too big?

God has been showing me that my size is not what matters. What matters is my heart and my willingness to give up unhealthy things in my life in order to be better fit to do what He has laid out for me. For example, chase my 20-month old daughter around the house all day. You see, my focus has been on the size of my pants ... not on the size of my heart. What I mean, is that I have focused so much energy on losing weight, only to gain more and more, that I lost focus on what is important in this area. What is important is that I am doing my very best to have self-control in every area of my life so that when my daughter, or a friend, or a stranger, sees my life they will see Christ in me. I am the one focused on my jean size and image.. God is focused on my heart. I need to be focused on what God is focused on.

Is my heart in the right place?

That is my focus. The rest will eventually follow if I am doing what I should be doing to follow Him first.

I love the Lord

I love chocolate

I love that God is continually teaching me and allowing me to grow in every way (no pun intended)