Plans for me...

God has a lot to say about preparing, storing, saving, giving, serving and His plans for me.

Lately, the hubby and I have felt led to begin preparing for an emergency. Why? Only God knows, but we have both been feeling tugged at over this. We have commenced with our emergency planning and have quickly realized that it is an overwhelming task to figure out what we actually would need and what we wouldn't. What is reasonable, what is not?

As God always does, a perfectly timed blog came my way entitled:

Emergency preparedness 8 week program

Seriously. I literally just put together our new plastic storage unit which will house our emergency supplies and thought to myself "what am I going to fill this with to keep us safe in a disaster or small emergency?"  I open my email and here is this blog about emergency preparedness.

Crazy. I know.

So, I am doing it.

Feel free to join! :)

Weekly Weigh-In

Physical Weigh-In
Week #1: +/- 2.2 pounds
Total Pounds Lost: 2.2

This past week, I diligently tracked points and set up my own Weight Watchers system. I tracked, I ate little, I felt hungry all week. 

The thing is, I feel a million times better already. It is amazing the difference that it makes when I am making smarter choices with what I eat and having to choose to eat healthier and "earning" my sweet snacks. 

Spiritual Weigh-In
Philippians 2:14 - "Do everything without complaining or arguing."

This verse was in part of my devotions this morning. It caused some serious confession time and some long needed forgiveness and a slap in the face reminder. You see, my 2 1/2 year old precious daughter soaks up her surroundings like a sponge. Lately, she has been "re-enacting" things that her Mama does (that's me). This verse today reminded me that not only should I not be complaining (what do I have to complain about?), but God pointed out to me that I have a child in my home that is looking to me to learn how to have a relationship with the Lord. If am spending my time complaining around her, to her or about her, what does that teach her about my love for the Lord? 

What does it say when in response to someone asking how Emma is doing I respond with "she's been kind of a bad girl and is really frustrating me sometimes with her fits."  "I just don't want it to be my kid that's in trouble." "She's normally so good and I don't understand why she has been having so much trouble lately." 

How would it make me feel if someone said those things about me? 

Lord help me to speak kindly of Emma, Chris and anyone. Let no bad thing come from my mouth and let my lips only ever speak Praise and whatever is needed to BUILD UP my child, my friend, my husband, myself.

P.S.  Shout out to Amy Jo for the accountability email. Shout out to Joanna for the texts and emails of encouragement!

life with jack: 1st Corinthians 13 for Moms

life with jack: 1st Corinthians 13 for Moms:

THIS is so encouraging to me

Monday Measure

Week #3: +/- 0 pounds
Total Pounds Lost: 0

Ummmmmmmm

Heaven help me if I ever find motivation again. I'm not doing good at losing 20 pounds but I'm doing good at not gaining more... I guess that's a start. 

Oh well.. it's just a number right? 

Weekly Weigh-In

Week #1: +/- 0 pounds
Total Pounds Lost: 0

Well, I tracked well for three days and then let it slide thinking I was doing good. I didn't gain (praise God!) but I lost nothing. That is not good.

MUST DO BETTER

Monday Weigh-In

Starting Weight: 3 pounds from where I started WW back in February

It happened. I stopped doing Weight Watchers and let myself fill my belly with excuses like: "It's summer, just relax" "You won't gain very much back if you just eat a little bit of this" "People will love you no matter what your weight is, it's really not that important" "It tastes so good!" "I just love food, I can't stop eating it .. I don't have a choice, it's how God made me!"

I stopped going to the meetings because I had no one to go with. It was becoming way too difficult with Emma, as she would not sit still or use her "indoor voice" for very long. That doesn't mean that I couldn't have gone and weighed in and left... but that kind of defeats the purpose. 

Since I stopped going to the meetings, there was way less motivation to actually continue counting points. I'm not going to lie. It's a pain to write down every single morsel of food and how much you ate of it and then look up the points. However, that's kind of the point!

So, I happened upon a printable points tracker (that was free!) that will allow me to do the program without paying for the meetings. 

So, here we go again! Mondays are my weigh-in days. I will track from my current weight, which is 3 pounds less than when I started weight watchers the first time. 

Mommy reset #2: Restart Weight Watchers

Mommy reset #1: Wake up at 6:30 a.m. and do devotions
Started this today! Felt good to have some quiet time alone in the early morning hours with my Savior. Began a study in 1 John. First day was good :)

Reset Button

I don't know about you all... but this mama is in need of a serious reset button.

I need motivation.

I need sleep.

I need exercise.

I need to get back to Weight Watchers.

I need a routine that involves doing fun activities with Emma.

Most importantly?  I need a reset button for my walk with God. You heard me right. I am genuinely good at slacking. If it were a career, I would be climbing the ladder of success. I slack in almost every area of my life and am pretty much known for starting and not finishing things.

Oh, you don't believe me? I'm being too hard on myself?   When was the last time I let you down?  Yup... told you so. Made a commitment and then had to drop out? Promised to call more and didn't? Haven't sent you an email in ages?

When was the last time you saw a weight watchers update?  Mmmhmm...  that's me. Dropout.

Last week I was told "I love you but you have the least amount of willpower of anyone I know."  Offensive? Yup... could I defend myself?  Nope.

6 months of weight watchers. 14 pounds gone.  6 weeks off of weight watchers... 7 pounds back.

352 pins on my pinterest boards. 3 unfinished projects laying up in the sewing room.

A quieter schedule at home. Wasted hours of time on the computer checking facebook and email and waiting for someone from the outside world to talk to me.

This is my confession.

This is me once again saying that I can't stand this rut that I am in and I want out.

This is me trying to find the reset button.

This is me.